Yan Yidan thought for a moment and then said, “Every year on your birthday, the sky over Beijing is filled with fireworks. He celebrates your birthday every year, buying you the gifts you like. During the five years you were unconscious and in a vegetative state, he went to the hospital to be with you every day, without missing a single day. Once, he was in a car accident and was two hours late to see you. He kept apologizing to you, even though you couldn’t hear him at all. The doctor said that talking to you more would help you regain consciousness as soon as possible, so he kept repeating those beautiful memories of you two. I’m tired of hearing them, but he’s still not tired of them.”
Jiang Nanshu tightened her grip on her wine glass.
She had no idea…
Lu Qingyan had never told her this.
Yan Yidan sighed. Although she didn’t want to say it, she had to. The constant conflict between the two of them was truly unbearable.
“Nan Nan, what about you? Have you ever carefully prepared a gift for his birthday? Have you remembered his preferences? Have you cared about his daily schedule? Have you paid attention to his mood changes? Have you pushed him further and further away in your anger?”
“You can’t accept him protecting you in his own way, just like you don’t have the patience to properly understand him. You probably don’t even know what he needs, let alone your previous relationships…”
Yan Yidan chuckled, “Your previous relationships with him were more like his own willful actions. He was always the one who took the initiative, while you were always the passive one, waiting for him to come to you.”
“You know he won’t leave you, but he’s unsure if you will leave him. Just like back then, we didn’t understand why you left so decisively. Verbal promises can’t build trust.”
As Yan Yidan continued speaking, she saw Jiang Nanshu bowing her head in silence.
In her eyes, Jiang Nanshu was just an awkward little girl.
Jiang Nanshu listened to Yan Yidan’s words with a somewhat dazed expression.
She was in a coma for five years, and he stayed with her for five years, talking to her for five years?
Unfortunately, she hadn’t heard him.
Because she didn’t want to dream of him, nor did she want to hear him speak. Just seeing him made her feel guilty.
She didn’t want useless emotions to disturb her mind, so she took sleeping pills to fall into a deep sleep so she wouldn’t dream.
As long as she didn’t take sleeping pills, she would always dream of Lu Qingyan, which troubled her greatly.
In her previous relationships, Jiang Nanshu only wanted to complete a mission. She hadn’t seriously accepted him and was even hypocritical, only thinking of deceiving his feelings.
But at some point, she would also feel irritated because of Lu Qingyan. She didn’t want to delve into this emotion, but instead tried to eliminate it.
Those facades of happiness were nothing more than… a performance.
Jiang Nanshu stood up unsteadily: “I want to be alone for a while. I’m leaving now.”
“Jiang Jiang…” Xu Xi wanted to chase after her.
Yan Yidan pulled Xu Xi back: “Let her think about it. She’ll be fine.”
Xu Xi’s eyes showed worry.
Jiang Nanshu wandered aimlessly along the street. The streetlights were dim, and the crowds on the sidewalks were noisy, but all this liveliness was irrelevant to her.
She wandered alone through the crowd.
Until she passed a jewelry store.
Only then did she touch her ring finger, where the ring she had thrown away previously was.
As if possessed, she went inside, looking at the rings in the display case, carefully selecting one.
She realized that she didn’t even know what ring size Lu Qingyan wore.
Jiang Nanshu ultimately bought a pair of rings, but one that didn’t fit Lu Qingyan.
Her head was spinning, and she was so exhausted that she sat down on the roadside. The birthday present she gave Lu Qingyan was the very same one she’d given him after leaving him to die, the one that had broken his heart.
But Lu Qingyan was foolish; even after all she’d done to him, he still wanted to marry her.
Tears dripped onto the ring box in her hand; they accumulated there.
Jiang Nanshu frantically wiped them away.
A figure stopped in front of her, squatted down, and silently wiped away her tears with a tissue.
Jiang Nanshu looked up and saw Lu Qingyan’s handsome face.
Her eyes welled up with tears again.
“Nan Nan, it’s time to go home. It’s very late.”
Jiang Nanshu handed over the ring: “I bought a ring, but I don’t know your size, so it might not fit.”
Lu Qingyan glanced down at it, then slowly took it: “It’ll definitely fit.”
He took the ring out, placed it in Jiang Nanshu’s hand, and smiled at her: “Can you put it on me?”
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Translator’s Comment:
Oh my, I’m feeling sad for this silly boy Lu Qingyan~
What Jiang Nanshu and others didn’t know, Lu Qingyan even gave half of his life for Jiang Nanshu. What a sacrifice!
I want one Lu Qingyan in my life, but I am not Jiang Nanshu~
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