IISET Chapter 84

I’m in a Shuraba Every Time I Open My Eyes Chapter 84: Third battlefield (52)

Bai Xiyue tasted blood.

It was warm, and filled her lips and teeth with a sickening fishy smell.

Her eyes were clear for a moment, then turned into a deeper fierceness.

She had tried so hard to survive.

I try very hard to change what I can, just to survive.

The world suddenly became confusing and it was unclear what was true or false.

She bit it mercilessly, her eyes fixed on the piece of skin in front of her.

Pei Yuzhou’s body was stiff, but he did not push Bai Xiyue away. His body slowly softened and he endured the pain.

He still combed Bai Xiyue’s hair patiently with a smile on his face.

As long as it was given by Bai Xiyue, even if it was painful, he would accept it completely.

The place where Pei Yuzhou was bitten was already bloody and fleshy. Bai Xiyue was just an ordinary person after all, and did not have the ability to bite a person’s throat like a beast.

She couldn’t kill him.

“I hate you.”

Bai Xiyue’s voice was hoarse when she heard Pei Yuzhou’s laughter.

“I know.”

Pei Yuzhou held Bai Xiyue’s hand, and regardless of Bai Xiyue’s wishes, interlocked their fingers.

Pei Yuzhou held Bai Xiyue’s hand, ignoring Bai Xiyue’s wishes, and clasped her fingers.

“Even if you kill me, you can’t escape from here.”

Pei Yuzhou didn’t mind his bloody neck at all and kissed the corner of Bai Xiyue’s eye.

This was the perfect cage he had built for her.

No one will be able to find this place or discover it in decades.

Pei Yuzhou’s lips were warm, but Bai Xiyue felt cold.

The coldness seeped into her bones and wrapped around every part of her body.

Nausea.

So disgusting.

This kind of morbid, paranoid and unfree love.

Bai Xiyue opened her eyes and could almost imagine what she would become in the future.

The thought of herself being numb and hopeless makes her feel cold.

Never live in the shadow of others.

When all the sharpness and edges were worn away, and it became a docile puppet dependent on people, becoming dull and cowardly, pale and weak, Bai Xiyue felt suffocated just thinking about it.

At the beginning, she didn’t think of doing this.

But now, she really wanted to kill Pei Yuzhou, just bite his throat and turn him into a lifeless corpse.

It seemed as if there had never been such a system in her mind, as if the previous rescues and tasks she had completed were just her lengthy dreams.

But no fantasy could be so real, so real that she could touch someone else’s body temperature, so real that she could feel the pain of being killed.

But how come she was suddenly thrown back?

Even if it was just a game with ulterior motives, it shouldn’t have ended in such a sloppy way without any follow-up.

“What are you thinking about?”

Pei Yuzhou looked at her red lips covered with blood, and looked at the flame that never extinguished in her eyes.

It looks really good.

When Pei Yuzhou was about to kiss her, Bai Xiyue turned her head away, letting his lips brush against her face.

Pei Yuzhou was not annoyed, so he kissed Bai Xiyue’s face.

The stubbornness and affection in his eyes made Bai Xiyue’s scalp tingle.

Overcorrection is as bad as too little.

Bai Xiyue wanted to be loved. Who doesn’t want someone to love them wholeheartedly?

But the kind of love we need should be moderate, not like this, like a heavy piece of iron, forcibly pressing on her and making her breathless.

Bai Xiyue knew that pretending to be obedient could save her from suffering, but she just didn’t want to.

When she was first imprisoned, Pei Yuzhou never tortured her.

He simply left her in this dark and small environment, with her limbs tied up and facing endless loneliness.

Bai Xiyue felt that this was not love, but torture.

She knew what Pei Yuzhou wanted to see. He wanted to see her completely collapse, to see her unable to leave him and regard him as her only support.

Bai Xiyue endured it until she was in a trance.

Fortunately, the system suddenly appeared, allowing her to breathe a sigh of relief.

Otherwise, she didn’t know when she would become what Pei Yuzhou wanted.

“Yueyue, I love you.”

Pei Yuzhou’s voice sounded in her ears like a ghost.

The ghost kept whispering words of love in her ears, over and over again, tirelessly.

Sometimes, Bai Xiyue would feel like she was brainwashed while listening to it.

Bai Xiyue closed her eyes somewhat wearily, and felt Pei Yuzhou gently touching her face.

The overwhelming feeling of powerlessness almost overwhelmed her.

Trying hard to do something but just not being able to complete it.

Bai Xiyue felt a little anxious and negative, which mixed together to create an extremely complicated mood.

She didn’t want to see this world anymore.

I don’t want to die like this, but I don’t want to live like this either.

The air quieted down.

Bai Xiyue thought about the day she broke up with him. It was a very ordinary day, with the same weather as usual. The things that happened before she set out seemed unremarkable. At that time, she didn’t know that she was on the verge of danger, and she just thought of it as an ordinary day in her life.

But as soon as you take a step, the situation changes suddenly.

Bai Xiyue hated the feeling of self-pity, and also hated herself for being helpless now.

She wondered what kind of unknown destination she would end up in if she followed the path planned by the system.

If I had gone back and followed the steps the system gave me when it spoke to face everything, what would it be like now?

Bai Xiyue didn’t know if she would regret it in the future, but she definitely wouldn’t regret it now.

Abandoning the false light, she returned to this darkness.

In this drowsy state, Bai Xiyue felt that she was falling continuously.

When she opened her eyes again, she saw a beige color in front of her.

She sat up with her hands and looked around warily.

This is another unfamiliar environment.

“Pei Yuzhou?”

No one responded.

Bai Xiyue looked at her hands and legs. They were clean and white, without any signs of being shackled.

This shouldn’t be.

Did she appear in some strange place again?

“System?”

Still no one answered.

Bai Xiyue pinched herself quietly, it hurt.

It was only when she bent down and pinched herself that Bai Xiyue realized that her clothes were different.

There was a mirror in the room. Bai Xiyue walked over barefoot and saw herself in the mirror.

It was her, or rather, her face.

Bai Xiyue stretched out her hands and looked at the lines on her palms.

It’s her.

Bai Xiyue sat back on the bed, waiting for an explanation of all this.

The silence was broken only after Bai Xiyue looked around the room.

“Miss Bai, did you rest well?”

A crisp childish voice sounded in the room.

“Who are you?”

Bai Xiyue looked around and spoke to the air.

“I’m here.”

The wall in front of me suddenly turned into a projection screen, and a little cartoon dinosaur appeared on it.

“I am your future system. You can call me Kaka.”

The little green dinosaur swung its tail and a childish voice came from it.

“I need an explanation.”

“You have participated in our activities before, so we can be considered old friends.”

“Who is an old friend with you.”

Bai Xiyue twitched the corner of her mouth.

“What social harmony department are you from?”

“Well, we had a small glitch before, so we sent you back to your original world. Now you can choose to continue the mission.”

The clicking sound is brisk.

“As long as you collect ten energy points, you can return to the original world. We have compensated the energy points for the previous world failure. Your current account balance is four points.”

“What about my previous system?”

Bai Xiyue looked at the cartoon dinosaur on the projection screen.

“There was a problem and repairs are being carried out.”

“I want it, not you.”

“Eh? My authority is higher than its. It’s just a primary system.”

“I want it.”

Bai Xiyue reiterated.

“After it is repaired, you’ll be notified.”

“Now that Miss Bai has rested, can we start the mission?”

“I don’t want to do the mission anymore, send me back.”

Bai Xiyue stared at the dinosaur, her brain working rapidly.

“We have signed a contract, and the mission cannot be suspended until the mission is completed.”

The little dinosaur’s tone was not as intimate as before, and his attitude became colder.

“That’s fine. You can do whatever you want. Even if you put me in a mission world, I won’t do the mission. The worst that can happen is that I will rewind infinitely.”

“Miss Bai, if you don’t cooperate like this, it will damage your spirit. It is very likely that you will enter an extreme state and develop a mental illness.”

“It doesn’t matter.”

Anyway, it’s not far from crazy.

She even wanted to hug Pei Yuzhou and commit suicide together.

No, she hoped Pei Yuzhou would die on his own.

Bai Xiyue’s attitude now is, you can dance as you like, it’s none of my business.

She just wanted to see what these ghost things were up to, doing this and that.

“Miss Bai, you can go back after completing the mission. We will rescue you and give you a sum of money as we agreed before. Don’t you want these?”

“I don’t want to.”

Bai Xiyue felt no emotion at all, and even wanted to rap.

Bai Xiyue calmly took the initiative in her hands and looked at the other party’s intentions.

“But what good is this for you?”

“I am happy.”

“Do you really want to go back to that place? According to our estimation, you may be killed by Pei Yuzhou in a few days. By then, you will have no chance to regret it.”

“Well? Then what?”

Bai Xiyue even showed an amused smile on her face, looking invulnerable and unmoved by any threats.

Kaka was silent for a moment, as if thinking.

“Could it be that you can’t let me do the task when I die?”

Bai Xiyue sneered, looking like she didn’t care much.

“Yes, when your life characteristics disappear, we will have no way to save you, so you have to seize the opportunity.”

“That’s not bad. At least I don’t have to worry about being caught and used as labor after I die.”

Bai Xiyue breathed a sigh of relief and was no longer afraid.

Kaka was startled and realized that he was being tricked.

“Miss Bai, can I ask for your reason? I think humans should cherish their lives.”

“Do you know what humanity’s greatest weapon is?”

Bai Xiyue blinked.

“Mind?”

“No,” Bai Xiyue shook her head, “It’s the determination to go all out.”

I’m willing to give up everything, even my life.

Even the weakest person can burst out with strength.

“I want to hear the truth.”

Bai Xiyue looked at the little green dinosaur.

What is the plot behind all this?

The author has something to say: “Do you know what mankind’s greatest weapon is?”

“It’s the determination to go all out.”

——Kotaro Isaka